Over the past two months I have been sitting in meditation and there have been issues such as concentration and the mind wandering onto other streams of thought. I have not been too bothered about this and gently try to pull myself back onto the meditation but it is not always easy to do. I have noticed that I now sense tingling on the left hand side of my head and the shoulder. It is curious and is present much of the time in or out of meditation.
I am having more problems with the sitting in the power meditation and the visualisation of light expanding outwards from within but the unfoldment exercise is easier to follow. Perhaps I need to concentrate on the sitting in the power aspect rather than avoid it. We will see.
Overall it is frustrating how slow progress seems to be. I think that maintaining a diary is therefore necessary to track progress. I just need to be conscientious about making entries in the diary otherwise it won't work.
Wednesday 3 November 2010
Monday 9 August 2010
9th August
I am working with silent meditation during Monday to Friday and the guided sitting in the power and mediumistic unfoldment on weekends.
An interesting point noted about the meditations is that from Monday to Friday, the depth is not as great as on weekends but that it is all having an affect both on how I react to situations and my outlook. Meditation reduces stress levels but also begins to effect the way you look at life. I suspect part of the challenge is to maintain this change of focus and the temptation is to slide back into a 'normal' way of reacting/acting. As an explanation of the last sentence consider the burdens of life on a person and then imagine that the next day they have passed over for whatever reason. The burdens are (in theory) no more and the sense of relief would I expect be enormous. In a similar way so to is the effect of meditation on the outlook on life, with the change being a release and a re-evaluation of what is important. In my case the changes are small and subtle and as I have already said the challenge is to maintain those small incremental changes in focus.
I don't feel a sense of sitting in the power yet but it is early days and I am happy to wait. The process is described as being the most important part but because one is aware only of the day one meditates and not so aware of how much one has changed, it can be a frustrating experience. Hence this blog was also to capture the development and highlight the changes over time. So I am determined to keep the routine going for at least one year and to try to document the process.
Documentation is difficult because the meditational shifts are subtle and one is not sure what, if anything, is significant. Certainly images come and go and the temptation to react or dwell on them is high. Sometimes I wonder if it hurts to dwell or if it is also an important part of the development. We will see. One of the important points I think is to accept and not to judge, not to have preconceived ideas. This I need to work on as these preconceptions can be very subtle when they are your own and are deeply ingrained (almost subconscious) desires.
An interesting point noted about the meditations is that from Monday to Friday, the depth is not as great as on weekends but that it is all having an affect both on how I react to situations and my outlook. Meditation reduces stress levels but also begins to effect the way you look at life. I suspect part of the challenge is to maintain this change of focus and the temptation is to slide back into a 'normal' way of reacting/acting. As an explanation of the last sentence consider the burdens of life on a person and then imagine that the next day they have passed over for whatever reason. The burdens are (in theory) no more and the sense of relief would I expect be enormous. In a similar way so to is the effect of meditation on the outlook on life, with the change being a release and a re-evaluation of what is important. In my case the changes are small and subtle and as I have already said the challenge is to maintain those small incremental changes in focus.
I don't feel a sense of sitting in the power yet but it is early days and I am happy to wait. The process is described as being the most important part but because one is aware only of the day one meditates and not so aware of how much one has changed, it can be a frustrating experience. Hence this blog was also to capture the development and highlight the changes over time. So I am determined to keep the routine going for at least one year and to try to document the process.
Documentation is difficult because the meditational shifts are subtle and one is not sure what, if anything, is significant. Certainly images come and go and the temptation to react or dwell on them is high. Sometimes I wonder if it hurts to dwell or if it is also an important part of the development. We will see. One of the important points I think is to accept and not to judge, not to have preconceived ideas. This I need to work on as these preconceptions can be very subtle when they are your own and are deeply ingrained (almost subconscious) desires.
Sunday 1 August 2010
Starter for Ten
This blog is really a journal of my exploration of spirit and how I come to understand who I am. I am not sure that first sentence makes perfect sense but I am not sure how else to phrase things.
Spirit to me at this point in time means the fundamental source of who I am. The 'Great Spirit' is the spirit that brings/has brought, into existence everything and is all that is and is not, so contains me (a spirit) as well. I - that is the conscious me typing this note - believes that my spirit is not separate or less than the 'Great Spirit' but that for a reason the conscious me does not understand, the road my spirit is following has led to the point of feeling separated from the 'Great Spirit' or my true home.
I believe that my spirit connects to a different level of being sometimes called 'the spirit world' and that this connection can be perceived consciously. In fact I believe that I should be able to bridge the gap between 'the spirit world' and this material world I live in on a permanent basis. This ability should be second nature for everyone but we have forgotten this ability. I would like to remember it in this lifetime as I believe it will help immeasurably in all that I do or would like to do. Sages and mystics of old have described this state of awareness, so it is perfectly possible to achieve.
I also believe that 'the spirit world' is a next step and not a goal. Like I said I believe I am far away from my true home and not at all sure I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
A method of exploring spirit that I am trying is meditation and specifically sitting in the power. I am going to commit time each day to meditation, opening up and blending with spirit. The objective is to see where it will lead me and what I will be aware of and not to put a limitation on it.
I feel we have been told too many times what we can't do and what is too difficult to do and never what we can do. This has been done to such an extent that we live in a closed world created by our beliefs, one that is quite barbaric and primitive. One where fear rules and we are encouraged to believe all answers lie outside ourselves with others who know better.
My posts will be erratic as I am not sure about this process, but it is my challenge to my spirit.
Spirit to me at this point in time means the fundamental source of who I am. The 'Great Spirit' is the spirit that brings/has brought, into existence everything and is all that is and is not, so contains me (a spirit) as well. I - that is the conscious me typing this note - believes that my spirit is not separate or less than the 'Great Spirit' but that for a reason the conscious me does not understand, the road my spirit is following has led to the point of feeling separated from the 'Great Spirit' or my true home.
I believe that my spirit connects to a different level of being sometimes called 'the spirit world' and that this connection can be perceived consciously. In fact I believe that I should be able to bridge the gap between 'the spirit world' and this material world I live in on a permanent basis. This ability should be second nature for everyone but we have forgotten this ability. I would like to remember it in this lifetime as I believe it will help immeasurably in all that I do or would like to do. Sages and mystics of old have described this state of awareness, so it is perfectly possible to achieve.
I also believe that 'the spirit world' is a next step and not a goal. Like I said I believe I am far away from my true home and not at all sure I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
A method of exploring spirit that I am trying is meditation and specifically sitting in the power. I am going to commit time each day to meditation, opening up and blending with spirit. The objective is to see where it will lead me and what I will be aware of and not to put a limitation on it.
I feel we have been told too many times what we can't do and what is too difficult to do and never what we can do. This has been done to such an extent that we live in a closed world created by our beliefs, one that is quite barbaric and primitive. One where fear rules and we are encouraged to believe all answers lie outside ourselves with others who know better.
My posts will be erratic as I am not sure about this process, but it is my challenge to my spirit.
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